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Saturday, February 28, 2015

Emotionally and Spiritually Bereft in the U.S.


On facebook today, in one of the groups I am in, this picture was posted.  As a response a member asked (paraphrased) if the reason that people in the U.S. are emotionally and spiritually bereft due to what our Ancestors did to the Native Americans.  This got me thinking on why people in the U.S. are so disconnected from Spirit.  I am not discounting the history of our Ancestors.  There is a lot of hurt and pain in their actions that we have to live with but ultimately I feel that there are several reasons that we are disconnected and here I will address a few of them.

1) We live and walk on concrete and asphalt.  We wear rubber soles on our feet.  We are surrounded by buildings and artificial light.  We very seldom feel Pachamama (Earth) under our feet.  We do not feel Her rhythm or heartbeat.  We do not see the sun rise or set.  We are disconnected from the very planet we live on.  

2) We are always trying to obtain "more," we are very seldom just satisfied with what we have and even less grateful.

3) We have no rituals from our homelands.  We are disconnected from any ritualistic ways that our Ancestors may have had.  The rituals we now have focus on work and obtainment not on the land and appeasing the Gods.  Any rituals that our Ancestors had were destroyed by religions that did not want us to know about them.  We find through archaeology some of the things that our Ancestors did by piecing the artifacts together but very few true rituals exist today unless we had a grandparent that carried them forward and few did!

4) We have no ceremonies.  We celebrate holidays with an abundance of food and family but most ceremonies to honor are gone.  The current ceremony is watching the game of whichever sporting event is on during the family get together.  There is little honoring going on and most have forgotten what the meaning of the holiday is.  If you are not a Christian then most of the holidays celebrated in the U.S. are not significant to you as the majority are based on the happenings of Jesus.  

If you are pagan you know that the majority of these holidays were taken and changed to fit the story that is told by the church.  There are many similarities but things have been changed enough that the ceremonies once practiced are no longer in full form so we recreate to honor our beliefs.  As honorable as this is and as necessary as it is for those of us walking alternative paths we still miss the connection with our Ancestors because it was not their ways.  We can only continue to work at the connection and follow their lead when we are creating ceremony to ensure that they are included.

5) Lack of prayer!  Most people pray for things, for miracles, for money, for whatever item they feel they can't live without today.  Prayer has turned into a pleading rather than a conversation with Spirit. Any thankfulness is an after thought rather than a forethought.

The majority of people do not walk in prayer.  Prayer is there to fulfill a need not to communicate with the Gods/Spirit.

I believe that our Ancestors walked in prayer.  They believed they were at the mercy of the Gods and made offerings to stay in their good graces.  They made offerings to the dead knowing that the dead were still available in their realm.  They made offerings in thankfulness and in hopes that they would be blessed.  They were blessed because they were thankful.  Their offerings were given from the heart.  Things that meant something to them.  Not things that they ran to the store and bought!

Now, most bury their dead and forget about them.  They don't feel the connection to them because they do not honor them in anyway.

6) The disconnection of the land is profound.  We no longer know where our food comes from let alone what is in it or how it is made.  

Microwaves have replaced cooking.
Televisions have replaced dinner tables where families sat and shared their days.

Our Ancestors cooked their meals, they planted their food and killed their animals for meat, clothing, utensils and many other items they would use throughout the year.  

7)  We live in a disposable society.  Nothing is made to last.  We have significant waste.  Something breaks and we buy a new one.  We want for nothing.  We buy food and don't eat it so we throw it away.  We are not invested in the production so we have no qualms in the tossing out of things.

8) Our survival is not dependent on others.  We no longer depend on a tribe of people to survive or do their part.  The majority feel that their survival depends on how much money they make and what they can afford.  No longer do we have to depend on others to help us get through a rough winter or stock the cabinet with food to us through the dark months of the year.  Now we can go to the grocery store and buy what we need whenever we need it.  Sick?  You don't need a Shaman and the Spirits to heal you, instead you go see a doctor.

9)  We no longer see the person sitting next to us as connected to us.  There is hatred and discrimination based on religion, color, sex - anything "different" than what we view as "us."

We hate over politics.
We hate over religion.
We hate over social classes.
We hate over skin color.
We hate over what we call foreigners.
We hate over sexual preference.
We look at others as being "less than" and hate when someone is "needy."

Hatred begets anger, anger begets hatred, it is a vicious cycle and all of it stems from judgment and a perspective of self against the world.  If someone isn't like us we hate, we judge, we don't understand their ways so they have to be wrong.

10) Lack of communication - We live in an age of technology where we have the opportunity to reach millions yet we don't know how to communicate.  

We start with our own judgments and we voice our opinions based on our perspective at that moment in time.  The problem comes in when someone disagrees with us.  We do not keep an open heart and approach differing opinions with love and listening.  Instead we take offense and immediately find that person offensive.  We become angry and divisive.  We have lost the ability to listen to other because the world revolves around "me" and "my opinion."  

We no longer lead with our hearts.  We do not walk in compassion.  Everything is based on logic and the brain and what we "think" we know.  In turn no matter what the other is saying we can twist it to what we believe it to be.  Our media does this daily and we follow suit.

None of these things happened over night.  They have been years in the making.  We are the only ones that can change our perspectives.  We are the only ones that can create the change we are seeking.  We start with our connection to Spirit/God/Goddess and we slowly build upon it.  These are just a few things off of the top of my head that seem very obvious to me so I tend to find it surprising that so many don't see them.  Hopefully, something here struck a cord and your perspective has changed a bit by reading this.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Where does one find Goddess/Spirit?

Where does one find Goddess/Spirit?

The last couple of days I have been having a conversation with a woman that I have chatted with for over 4 years. She has walked a pagan path for 10 years or so and has been struggling with connecting to Goddess.

After several conversations it became apparent (to me) that the issue wasn't so much that she wasn't connecting as much as it was she didn't recognize the connection.

Over the years I have heard many complain that they do not feel Spirit/God/Goddess yet when you sit and start talking to them you find that yes they do indeed feel Spirit but they do not recognize the connection.  I think in this world we live in we expect a life changing, big bang type of experience.  Something that will knock us off of our feet. Never realizing that if we sit back and pay attention the everyday connection we feel is a big bang experience.

In this day and time we are busy.  Always busy.  I hear more often than not that I just don't have time in my life to sit with Spirit.  Yet we can spend hours watching tv. We can spend hours cleaning, writing, paying bills, you name it we can find time to do it but we can't find 10 minutes in a day to focus on spending time with Spirit.  We were raised this way.  Disconnected.  We were raised to focus on everything outside of us and to make those things important in our lives.  We were raised to believe that nature was out there and we didn't have time to just go sit in it.  It would always be there so "someday" we would find time.  When we find time it is picnic time.  Time to take the family out and play frisbee.  Not time to just go and sit.  Who does that anyway?  Hippies?  Weird people?  This is the view of many of us.

We walk down the street we live on or through a mall and we never give thought to what is beneath our feet. We live in a man made world.  Tall buildings.  Asphalt streets.  Concrete sidewalks.  Smog filled cities. Stores with false lighting.  Yet under all of this sits Mother Earth.  If you stop and take a moment you can feel her heartbeat under your feet.  If you stop and take a moment and look around you will see her beauty.  It is only a moment yet it is a connection that is desperately needed in our world right now.

You can indeed feel Spirit if you take a moment to do so. You can hear Spirit speak to you if you take a moment to listen.

Start by walking out your front door. Is the Sun shining?  Feel it beat down on your face - that is Spirit.
Is the wind blowing?  Stop and listen to it - it speaks you know.  That is Spirit talking to you.  Is it raining? Feel the rain on your face, you don't need to run to get out of the rain, stop and feel it.  Your hair will dry. Your clothes will dry.  It is ok to feel the rain.  It is Spirit washing away your problems.  Your heavy energy that you insist on holding onto.  Let it wash away!  Do you have a fire going in your home?  That is Spirit talking to you - hear the wood crackle as it burns to warm you?  The wood is telling you its story.  Listen.

Did you hear a baby cry today?  That is Spirit opening your heart.  Did you see an elderly person walking by?  We turn our heads and hearts away from elderly people?  Why?  Because we are fearful of death yet that is Spirit telling us about the cycle of life.  Did you see someone in need today?  That was Spirit teaching you compassion.

My point here is that we can find Spirit in everything!  Spirit is always there and here, right inside of you. The more you listen.  The more you pay attention the more connected to Spirit you become.  Spirit is not outside of you.  Spirit is within.  Spirit resides within each of us all of the time.  We only have to pay attention to the lessons that Spirit is showing us.  Embrace them.  Be thankful.

When we find the things in our life to be thankful for Spirit increases them.  Even in the worst of situations we can find blessings if we look.  You are alive!  You have another day to make a difference.  Be thankful for that day.  Be thankful you are here.  Be thankful for the very breath you take.  Be thankful for all that you have.  Be thankful for the lessons that you have learned and the growing you have done as a human.  Those lessons have been difficult but you have survived them - BE THANKFUL!

When you come to Spirit with a thankful heart your life changes exponentially.  When you find the small things in life that connect you to Spirit your life changes and your awareness increases.  Spirit is within.  Spirit is always talking to you.  Will you listen?  Will you find that knowing within?  Will you find thankfulness in your heart?  Go and grow! Your big bang is waiting!

Saturday, September 29, 2012

New Normal

I didn't realize that it had been so long since I had posted anything.  Time flies!!

I have been busy recovering and trying to get my life back on track.  I am slowly getting there.  I take big leaps and then a few steps back.  I discovered a few months ago that my work within the Sisterhood revealed something that we all know but none of us really think about.

When we have life altering events happen in our lives we sit and wait for things to get back to "normal" - they never really do, do they?  Why is that?  Well for me it was an eye opening experience to have Goddess speak directly to me and tell me "This is your new normal."

You see we have a preconceived notion that things will go back to what they were but how can they?  We don't go back to where we were.  We never go back so we have to learn to adjust.  We adjust to the reality that we are living in - our new normal.

When someone dies or we go through a divorce or the list goes on and on we keep thinking that things will come to an even keel eventually and then we can move. When in reality we are already moving on.  We don't have a choice in the matter really but the sooner we realize that we have truly walked into a new normal the sooner we move forward.

So although we may find that we don't necessarily like where we are at the moment learning to accept it helps us move into a new place that we can embrace.  I am accepting my new normal.  I am moving forward.  As hard as it is to know I will never be able to hug my dad again, tell him I love him, I also know that he would not want me to stay in the dark place of hurt and missing.  He would want me to embrace my new normal!  I know he is still near just in a different form.  I will see him again some day but in the mean time I choose to move into my new normal and embrace what time I have left on this earth!

So what does your new normal look like?

Many Blessings,
Saets

Abundance Checks October 2012

For those that might be looking for the Abundance Check Dates for October here they are:

October 17, 18, 19, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27


Friday, April 13, 2012

April Abundance Check Dates

Here are the dates for April 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 30 - make sure you write your LOA checks!!

Blessings,
Saets

Monday, March 19, 2012

I received this in an email today and it spoke so very loudly to me that I felt the need to put it here for everyone.

No matter how tough life gets - and there are times when it's really rough - no matter how tough it gets, you should know that you are tougher.

You are strong and resilient and brave.

If you ever question that, even for a moment, look again at who you are and see yourself through spiritual eyes and you will understand exactly what I mean.

You get more amazing with every ticking of the clock.

Sunshine and Rainbows coming your way.


Thursday, March 8, 2012

My Sweet Husband

Yesterday would have been my only daughters 20th birthday. Elizabeth Cassandra was a full term stillborn. Regardless of what anyone says it is not something that you get over. It gets easier to deal with, with time, but the pain of losing your child never goes away. She was beautiful in every way, a ton of hair, my nose, and perfect.Why she isn't here is still somewhat of a mystery. According to the ob/gyn and coroner she died of a Eutero SIDS. A case of SIDS inside the womb. She was fine the day before when I had my ultrasound and gone the next day. The why's of why she isn't here really don't matter anymore, all that matters is that she isn't here.

Her death changed my life in more ways than I can ever possibly put into words. The biggest way it changed my life though was in my religious view. I had been raised a Baptist. I believed that everything happened for a reason. Yet when Lizzy died everything changed. To begin with I had already lost my 3 sons to a horrific divorce and although I had learned to live with the loss I never got over it. It would have been different if I had been a terrible mom but I wasn't. It would have been different if I had not loved my sons but I absolutely adored them. I still do although all of our relationships are strained at best. I am just thankful that there are relationships at all at this point.

So back to Lizzy, when she died I became very, very angry. How could a God that I had believed in, worshiped, and loved be so cruel? He had taken away my 3 sons and now he took my only daughter. Yes, I blamed God. After all everything to that point in my life, that I had been taught, said that God was in control.  He had the power. I felt this way for a few years after Lizzy died.

11 months after Lizzy died we had a beautiful, healthy, wonderful son - I was thankful but still angry that I didn't have my daughter.  Yet life went on.

When my son was about 2 years old I had a friend who asked me to go to a "psychic fair" - my life of Christianity kicked in and fear reared its head. After some talking she talked me into going. When we got there she wanted me to have a reading. I immediately said "NO!!" She teased me by asking me if I thought I would go to hell?!!  My reaction was "YES!!"

After some talking she got me to have a reading. I told her to pick the psychic and that I would give no more information than my name. She picked the right person. The psychic's name was Christina and her reading put me on the path I am on today. One of these days I will sit and write about that reading and the beautiful things she said. The bottom line for today is that her reading led me to a life of healing, love and my pagan path. For that I am forever grateful.

So yesterday was my daughter's 20th birthday. It was a difficult day. With recently losing my wonderful dad and that pain being so raw I found myself in a place that made her loss more profound and difficult to handle this year. I decided to bake a cake in celebration of who she was to me and who she would have been if she had lived. I made a chocolate cake with cream cheese frosting as it is my hubby's favorite. I know that Lizzy would have loved and adored her dad!

After we each had our cake my dear sweet husband posted a poem for our daughter and that is really what this post is all about. My hubby is a thoughtful man who does not show his emotions much. He showed them last night and for me it was a very profound moment. It showed me that although we move on in life and learn to live with our pain and although that pain changes over time, it never goes away. It is always there and it changes who we are and how we look at the world around us. We slowly heal but we never forget the pain nor do we really ever get over it. This was a profound lesson in so many ways for me. One that I am still learning.

So that I can keep the poem in a safe place and know that it will always be here when and if I ever have the need to read it I am posting it here with the remarks that my hubby made. I am thankful that I have such a wonderful man in my life and a beautiful son that has blessed my life in more ways than I can count. I am also very thankful for even the strained relationship I have with my 3 oldest sons and will always wish that life could have been different for all of us.

Now to the poem:

Just some thoughts on the hardest cake that my wife will ever make .....
Ode To Elizabeth
I hopelessly sit here,
Like twenty years ago.
All the candles are lit,
No "Sweet Angel" to blow.

I look up to the heavens,
And shout out "WHY" ??
The silence is deafening,
They don't hear my cries.

Yet again with dismay,
I feel no breeze.
No wind on my face,
Just me on my knees.

I fight all the demons,
That lurk inside me.
I would let them all out,
But I can't find the key.

This battle is fought,
every day of my life.
I hope I'm winning,
But it's not a fair fight..

You can throw theology,
Right out the door.
The bottom line is,
She’s with us no more.....

She lives in my heart,
So were never apart
She’s with me today.
As it’s pumping away.

Yet my soul is still searching,
For the love that I lost.
So hard to find peace
At whatever the cost

Then I look to the heavens,
And I desperately cry.
“Please, just one more puff "
No need to ask why .........

We Love You Baby,
Dad, Mom & J

Many Blessings to You and Yours,
Saet